Conversation with God...

Sometimes God speaks through his Word, sometimes through others, sometimes through a song or a book, sometimes in nature, sometimes in a still, small voice. This conversation is a combination of a few of those things, and has been about a week in the making. When I started writing this I couldn't figure out why it wasn't exactly coming together, and now I understand why. Because God's timing is always perfect.

Well I thought I knew what You were doing, but now I'm totally confused...
Will I not create, and will I not have it in my power to destroy? Is it not written that the potter breaks one vessel that he may shape a new one? (1) I am in control, and I know best. The pot I was shaping from the clay was marred in my hands, so I formed it into another pot, shaping it as seemed best to me. (2) I started this work in you, and I will not abandon you in the mess. You can trust that I am faithful to finish what I began, to my glory. (3)

I know that my confusion comes from failing to totally trust you, and my tendency to take things into my own hands. I feel like I will never learn...like I'm not getting anywhere, and nothing has changed.
If anyone is in me, she is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! (4)

But this doesn't make sense to me right now...where are you going with this? Can't you just give me some small idea of what is to come?
Be humble and patient. I am nearer than you think, and I will do more than you expect. I will accomplish my purpose, though my purpose may be entirely hidden from you. (5)

But why can't it just happen now? Wouldn't that be easier??
If I removed you from the scene, you would have no testimony of my miraculous delivering power. Stay beneath my wings, and I will make you a tower of strength to which the fearful may run and find safety. (6) And don't even think about wasting your time thinking about what might be, you will only miss out on all I have for you right now. It will all come to be in my perfect timing. Cast your bread upon the waters, for after many days you will find it again...whoever watches the wind will not plant, whoever looks at the clouds will not reap. As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in the mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the maker of all things...for you do not know which will succeed, whether this or that, or whether both will do equally well. (7) Trust me. Rest in me. Wait on me. In these things I will bless and multiply your efforts.

(1, 5, 6) Come Away, My Beloved
(2) Isaiah 43:2
(3) Philippians 1:6
(4) 2 Corinthians 5:17
(7) Eccelesiastes 11:1, 4-5, 6b